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National Infertility Awareness Week – Guest Blogger


As you may or may not know, it’s National Infertility Awareness Week.  I am very excited to be able to share a fellow bloggers story here at Run This Mom.  If you’ve followed my blog for a while you may have stumbled upon My Story, and how I came to be a Mom.  But what is not posted there is the heartache, and sadness that went along with the diagnosis, and surgery for Stage IV Endometriosis.  I did not talk about  how I felt hearing that I would not be able to conceive on my own.  I never wrote about the 6 weeks of recovery where I grieved for the inability to do the one thing I had always wanted to be able to do.  Become a Mom.

I didn’t share it because it was before this blog’s time, and it’s so hard to share those feelings as a woman.  I felt serious shame, even though it wasn’t my fault.  I even struggled after The Hubs and I got engaged…I felt like I was depriving him of an opportunity to be a Dad.  But once I was able to overcome that grief and put my energy into being happy, and after I let it go, my mantra was “If it’s meant to happen, it will happen.”, I was able to focus that energy and make it positive and turn it outward rather than inward.  Then lo and behold…a baby.  I was shocked, and speechless for a long time.  I was certain it would never happen.  But it just goes to show you never give up hope.

Anyway…

Here is my fellow blogger to share her story

Happy National Infertility Awareness Week! Before I begin, I want to thank, Krysty, for opening up her blog to a guest poster in order to help raise awareness about Infertility!

My name is Teresa and I am the girl behind “Where thebleep is my stork?”. I started blogging to help me through the trials and tribulations of trying to conceive. Talking about things, instead of keeping them buried inside, has always helped me to heal and to keep fighting. The blog became a place where I could “think out loud”, a place where I could be honest, real, raw and open.

Since starting the blog I’ve met so many wonderful people and have gained such an enormous amount of support. The blog has not only be cathartic for me; it has helped inspire, educated, and motivated other women who are fighting their own battle with infertility.  Never did I think my blog would end up being read and followed by so many people.; not only by friends and family, but also by complete strangers.  And I never thought I would find healing through the world wide webs.

Here is our story:

I am 32 and my husband, Mike is 39.  We live in beautiful Oregon with our “fur-babies” Zoie and Zeke.  I met Mike 15 years ago.  When I first met him, I never thought that I would end up marrying him! After going our own ways and losing touch, we were re-united in 2009. On September 10, 2011 (9-10-11, clever, right?! ) we were married. I say it was luck; he says it was fate.

Before the wedding I went to see an OB for a check up. We knew we wanted kids, but I was not having a regular period. I’ve never been regular; I used to think I was lucky. After experiencing a painful period the doctor recommended that we check for endometriosis, check a palup he thought he saw during an ultrasound, and to make sure that my tubes were open. In short, everything looked good, and my husband had a “normal” sperm count. The doctor started me on 50mg of Clomid on days 5-9 three times. I never produced follicles large enough. I went up to 150mg and even tried days 3-7. After 5 failed attempts with Clomid my OB referred me to and RE.

My initial visit with the specialist was February 10, 2012. After being in his office for no more than five minutes he told me that I had PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). FINALLY! I had some answers!!!

After running lots of blood work and after a 2.5 hour consult; we had a plan! In March he started me on Femara 5mg, days 3-7. Each cycle we ran blood work on days 21. I was ovulating with the Femara, so we tried 3 times, once with a trigger shot and an IUI. When that didn’t work we moved to injections. Again, I ovulated, but nothing came of it; both rounds of injections only produced 1 follicle on the right ovary 15-19mm. The RE labeled me a “poor responder”.

I decided I wanted a second opinion; just in case there was something we missed. It ended up  that the second doctor agreed that I had PCOS and that injections were a waste of money since I was only producing 1 follicle. If we were going to do injections at our age then we might as well do IVF. She recommended doing three more Femara cycles, with triggers and IUIs. If, after all of that, we have still not conceived she recommended that we turn to IVF.

So, here we are, 5 cycles of Clomid, 7 cycles of Femara, 2 rounds of injections and 4 IUIs later… still not pregnant and we are closer to IVF than we ever wanted to be. IVF scares me so much for so many reasons. I am not one to gamble- and this whole Infertility journey has been one big gamble; and I am on the losing side. I worry that we will end up so far in debt and an empty womb, regardless.

For now, we are taking a break and working on ourselves and our marriage. I don’t think people, even infertiles at first, realize the damage it does to a relationship. Our sex life became almost non-existent and our communication was breaking down; not to mention our bank account was drained. We were suffering. It’s been a year since we have tried to get pregnant with the help of doctors and it still hasn’t happened, but we have found some peace and each other again.

Infertility hurts. It is not something that is cured or goes away with time. I have friends, whom I have met through the blogging world, that have beat the disease and still say that hearing pregnancy announcements hurt them. It’s something that sticks with you no matter what happens at the end of our journeys. Some get to take a baby home through birth, adoption, surrogacy, and other’s find peace in the childless (child-free) life.

I don’t know where my journey will go- or end- but I know that I want my story to be an inspiration to others; to those suffering from infertility and to those who know someone suffering from infertility. I want to show that they are not alone and that their feelings are validated.  And to those who aren’t sure if happiness exists without the children of their dreams; I want to show them it does!


Thank you Teresa for sharing your story!  It’s hard to open up, and you have helped get the word out about infertility.  Sadly, it’s a fairly common thing.  I could write an entire book about why I think that women are struggling to conceive these days, and why I think PCOS is a scapegoat diagnosis, but I won’t.  This post is meant to open the public’s eyes about infertility, in hopes that we can all be a bit more sensitive to the issue.

Please visit resolve.org to learn more.

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Little Runner Girl is all grown up…


I’ve been toying with “growing up” the blog name for a while now, and it’s only natural to incorporate my new title…Mom.

I’m sure you’ve seen the name Run This Mom on a few of the photos I’ve posted lately, and that is because Little Runner Girl is moving on to Run This Mom.  I was laying in bed one night, one of the many, many nights I lay awake nowadays, and trying to think about the new role I am in and how I would like to bring it to the blog and those three words popped in my head.  It seemed like a great new title, and I really like it.  I think it’s fitting of my new role as a Mom and where I’d like to take this blog over the next how ever many years I write it.

So I would like to welcome you to the all new…

Run This Mom

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Motivation Monday – Marathon Monday for Boston


I could never even dare to dream that I could one day, with monumental amounts of hard work qualify for Boston.  I know that it will never happen because I am a slow runner.  Unless that is, the lifted the time restrictions, and opened it to everyone.  Only, I don’t see that happening either.  No matter what happens, or how hard they try to make it to qualify, the race only becomes more popular, and more elite.  That is the thing about runners, if you tell them they can’t…they only try harder.

This is one race that I would love to watch, and cheer at.  But I am here in Minnesota, doing my virtual Boston Race and will, like many other runners in our fabulous community, be there in spirit.

The Boston Marathon bombing is one of those “I’ll never forget where I was” moments.  I was at work, at lulu.  Thinking about my friends that were there and mentally cheering for them to be amazing.  When one of my co-workers came in and told us what had happened.  I felt sick.  Thankfully no one I knew was injured.

So many of those runners, and spectators that were injured have spent the last year overcoming what happened, and are back in Boston this year.  Many of them running!  It’s amazing, and so awe inspiring to see.  The bombing sort of had the opposite effect, I think, from what the misguided bombers were trying to accomplish.  It only bonded the running community together more, and made us stronger.  It opened up a whole new world for some, and in spite of this tragedy made us more determined.

Today I am strapping on my running shoes and getting some miles in for Boston.  #westandwithboston #bostonstrong

I hope you join me!

 

Throwback Thursday


BHAG!

Yeah I am not throwing back all that far today…but remember that time in January 2013 when I said I was gonna get in a bikini on stage?  But then I got pregnant?  Yep me too.

This goal is not going back on the bucket list anytime soon.

I’d rather run a marathon.

Motivation Monday – I hate to work out


I do.

It’s true.  I hate being tired and out of breath.  I hate being all sweat covered and stinky.  Sometimes the process of getting to the gym, even before The Babe, is long and often arduous journey here in MinneSNOWta.  So yes, I hate to work out.

I’d be lying if I said that I enjoyed it…but I would also be lying if I said that I was content to be jiggly forever.  So it comes down to which I hate more…

Being jiggly and lazy or being tired and covered in sweat.

If I had to choose a way to spend the day…I guess I’d rather be tired and covered in sweat.  At least I’d know that I accomplished something…right?  It’s been so long since I’ve had that “I can do anything…” feeling of power and pride after a workout that I have forgotten what it feels like.  I have been feeling a little gymtimidated…so that may have something to do with it.  That and the ridiculous winter we’ve had.  Last week 70s, this week snow?

But that is the great thing about the outside…

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I have been doing a Motivation Monday for a while now, and I do it to help me set a good mood for the week.  When I worked, I worked at a job I hated, with people that were not nice.  This blog helped me stay positive, and now that I am a SAHM&W I use this blog as an outlet so much more.

I am looking forward to getting excited to work out again.  And now that MIT is underway, it will be a huge motivator for me to do the “homework” on our training schedules.  There are so many new Moms in our group, and first time runners, that there are lots of accountibilibuddies.  Also, part of my new role in the community, something I hope to be able to announce soon, is to encourage moms to get out and workout together in groups.  This time around I will be surrounded by women that are just doing this for the first time, and I will be able to share what worked for me, and what didn’t.

motivation state of mind

Getting motivated looks different for different people.  Some of us are motivated by the ever increasing size of our rears, some of us by the PR, others for the bling.  I can’t motivate you, but I can share what motivates me and perhaps it will inspire you.  Whatever your motivation is for getting out there on the roads, trails, or treadmills you found it and you’ve used it to do awesome things.

I think that it takes a special type of person to be a runner.  It’s not for everyone, and I think that is because it’s seen by spectators in races as a painful experience.  But it’s not.  It’s a bit surreal at times, it’s a battle of wills, and yes sometimes it’s painful.  But only in the body.  If you can get your mind to let go of what it’s putting the body through, it’s the most incredible experience.  Yes, I am talking about the “Runner’s High”.  If everyone ran, and everyone experienced the feeling of pride in themselves, and that sense of accomplishment at the end of a long run, that big race or even that jog around the block…well I think that the world would be a much happier place.

So what is my motivation for running?  The high?  The PR?  The Bling?

Nope.

I run because I can.

Wordless weekend


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Big Changes Underway!


So yesterday I mentioned that I am going to be changing gears here on the blog, and after some serious consideration, the blog will be undergoing a bit of a big change in the coming weeks.  The focus will primarily be about running, and training, and of course food.  Yes, my daily life will be shared because I can’t not share what’s up with this little creature, since she is the center of my universe.

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Being a Mom is amazing, and it is a huge part of my life.  In fact I feel like it is my entire life right now.  This blog was started to share my journey with running, and now I am a Mother Runner.  The idea is the same, but what my running life looks like now is very different than what it was 3 years ago.  I know that I am not the only Mother Runner out there, and I know how challenging it can be to get back to feeling like you after having a baby.  I want to be a Fit Mom, and be a role model for my daughter.  I want her to grow up seeing a fit, healthy Mom, and be able to join me in my love for running and being active.  And so as I prepare for this shift in thinking, I will also be shifting things on the blog a bit!  I am really excited for it, and I hope you are too.  One of my revolutions this year was to be more authentic.  And so it begins (better late than never!) with making some pretty big changes here on the blog.  It may or may not include…a name change!  Gasp!  Again…??  Yep.  I think that it is time for this Runner Girl, to graduate to a Big Girl name but I am not revealing it just yet.  The reasoning behind this change is that I was recently given an opportunity to take on a new role in my community of Moms and I am prepared to run with it!  With the help of the mantra “Don’t just talk about it, be about it” I am busting at the seams to “Be about it”.

The other big change is that I am opening up the blog to more guest bloggers!  Whether you are a blogger, or a reader you are welcome to share your story, your favorite workout, a recipe, or even a gear review!  The new blog will feature 4 guest blogger posts per month, and will all fit a certain theme for the month.  I will select 4 guest posts to be featured every Sunday during the month.  To submit a guest blog post just email your posts to us at littlerunnergirlblog@gmail.com 

For the month of May  the topic is “How you started your running journey”.

 

Changing gears


This blog has been around for 3 years now, and in thinking about why I started it, and what it was meant to be about…

“…I started this blog during my training for my first half marathon with Team in Training.  I wanted to write about my experience training, and learning about this thing called running… “

>Minneapolis half Marathon Race report!

I have realized that I have taken this blog in an entirely different direction.  I started this blog to document my adventures in running, and then it turned into me getting fit…then being a Momma and domestic diva sharing my how-to for making your own laundry soap

And while that is all well and good…it’s not why I started this blog.  I started this to write about running, and learn more about it.  And I have not been doing that really at all for much of the last 2 years.  This blog has turned into food, and challenges, and babies.

But I also know that there has been a huge surge in followers to my blog over the last year due to the domestic divaship and baby updates.  So I don’t want to lose you!  I am thinking about where to take this blog over the next 3 years, and I really want to make it more about running, and less about the homemade soap and DIY projects.  Although I will continue to share those if I do them, and lord knows there is very little time these days with a busy baby on my hands, obviously food is a necessity and I will continue to share recipes and such.  I really don’t want this blog to be only known for a few popular challenges that people look at once and then don’t hang around for the rest of it.

So please bear with me over the next few weeks as I get back to the reasons why I started this blog, and focus on running.  It is totally possible that this change will not be extremely noticeable and the format will stay the same…but I just like to let all of my awesome readers and fans know what’s around the bend!  Thanks for sticking with me over these last 3 years!

>Motivation Monday

Winsday Wednesday – MIT training schedule


On Saturday our inaugural season of Moms in Training kicked off, and it is such an awesome thing to see that after 6 months of planning, tons of emails, and monthly meetings that we are ready to go!

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Our first training is this Saturday and I cannot wait!  It is so nice to have a training schedule laid out for me again!  I have made schedules in the past few months, but with no specific goal to work towards…they were never really implemented.

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Having this plan already put in place makes this so much easier.  And that is the wonderful thing about Team in Training and Moms in Training.  As participants we don’t need to do any of the planning for our workouts…other than if we want to carpool…and where we are going for breakfast afterwards!

I am mentoring this season, and it’s a lot of work, but work that I am so glad to do!  I have had tons of fundraising ideas rolling around in my head for months now!  It’s time to get to work on them!

If, my dear readers and loyal fans, you feel at all inclined to help me in my fight to end cancer please consider donating to my fundraising.  Every dollar matters, and makes a big difference to someone fighting cancer.  Just click the link below to donate!

http://pages.teamintraining.org/mn/momsmn14/kholmberg

Want to learn more about Moms in Training?  Watch this video!  Warning…you may want to grab a box of tissues…

Motivation Monday – How to build endurance in 5 easy steps


Building up  endurance can be one of those things that is easy if done right.  So today I am talking about how to build up your endurance for long runs, your regular cardio, or to help you get (back) in shape.

I feel like, having completed a few endurance events, I can have good endurance, but not great…and now it’s pretty much non-existent.  So that is one of the things that I’d like to work on with MIT now that the season has officially kicked off!

So here are 5 tips for building your endurance

  1. Do more than you did the last time.  Push yourself to do one more rep, run 1 more minute, add 1 more pound…even if it’s only a little…just push yourself to do more.
  2. Boost your heart rate.  Exercises that encourage your heart to get pumping, increases your stamina, thus increasing your endurance.
  3. Change up your terrain.  Running or walking on different levels of ground help strengthen your legs…hill repeats anyone?
  4. Cut out the crap.  Say so long to those sugary drinks, sodas, and dangerous energy drinks.  Carbonated drinks decrease your ability to get to maximum breathing and make you feel bloated and sluggish.  Also, fueling your body with clean healthy foods will ensure that your body is running at peak performance.
  5. Stretch!  be kind to your body after a workout.  Stretching prevents injury, and helps them to repair faster.  Recovery is so crucial to building endurance, and keeping you injury free.

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