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5 Things Friday

5 Things Friday


So this has been a week.  RIght now I am sitting in the waiting room at Gillette Children’s in St. Paul anxiously awaiting an update, and the return of my child.  Is it over yet?!

Here’s your five…

  1. I needed some serious motivation this week.  I’ve been having a little ankle pain since running the #TheGloRun…seriously no more night races for me.  They only end in injury.  I got out and ran, but it was a rough run.  I am running the Women Run The Cities 10 miler this weekend…and I am a bit nervous for how my ankle will do…IMG_3349
  2. I’ve been doing the #21dayfix this week and am down about 2 pounds so far!  Woot!
  3. Grey’s Anatomy yesterday…anyone watch?  Been waiting many long months for this!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
  4. I set up my workspace last weekend…I am not working from there at the moment…still working on getting the last few things organized.  But I love this desk! 10404135_649091118523265_1237549874096343888_n
  5. I have been seeing this quote blowing up my newsfeed this week.  So I think that the universe is trying to tell me something… 10687069_10152398879831864_2394695842642255184_n


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Doing all the things, and not failing at them

Not achieving something doesn’t mean that you failed, you fail when you don’t try. – Me


I always want to do all the things.  All of them.

I am that girl in the shoe store that tries on 20 pairs of shoes and leaves with none.  When I was in elementary school I played 3 instruments before I decided that playing music was not for me.  I have had many hobbies, photography, jewelry making, paper making, painting, drawing…when I was pregnant I wanted to be a Doula, I want to be a personal trainer, and a nutritionist…and deep down I always wanted to be a rock star.  But I cannot carry a tune in a bucket.  In fact I refuse to sing in front of anyone!  I changed majors a few times in college, held lots of different jobs, I have sold jewelry, make-up, worked in a gym, taught preschool, sold weight-loss supplements, really expensive yoga clothes, and more jewelry and never found the right fit for me.  Because it was never really my passion.  Any of those things.  But I know what I am passionate about: my family, classic rock, photography, helping others be successful, living a healthy happy life.  Shiny things, and chocolate, wanting the best things in life for my loved ones, and coffee.  Lots of coffee.


The best thing about where my life is right now is that I am in the perfect place to have all of those things in my life.  I get to stay home with my child, listen to my favorite music and help other people achieve their goals.  I’ve tried other things in the past that just felt lacking in my opinion, they just didn’t help me get to my goals, or they weren’t the right fit for me.  But I am so glad that I can say that I tried!  Just because I was not a successful rep for a company does not mean that I am unsuccessful.  It just means that I have not found my place yet…except I have.  I know with every fiber of my being that I am in the right place at the right time to achieve every goal I have set for myself.

What is one thing that you are passionate about?

Throwback Thursday

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This was one of those days during my first weight loss journey (pre-baby) that I busted out my “skinny clothes” and tried them on to check my progress.  I was stunned to fit into a 6.  I was sure that they were still going to be too tight.  But they weren’t. I had just gained an entire wardrobe back and was super excited.

I am almost to that point again with this post-baby weight loss.  That point where I can gain back all of my “skinny clothes” and get rid of the fat clothes forever!  If we do decide to have another kidlet, there is no way that I will be a lazy mama.  Fit mommy forever.

Hadley’s Hand

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Thought I would share Hadley hand update since people have been asking. We met with the pediatric orthopedic surgeon this morning and got her x-rays done. As you can see she does indeed have a double ring finger. But it is not a full length of the finger. That portion to the left will be removed. It was also shown that her pinky does not have its own hand bone, and therefore does not have its own ligaments, tendons and nerves. It shares those of the ring finger. Meaning that it is not independently functional and probably will not help her functionally in the future at all. So we have elected to have her pinky removed. We also can see from the x-ray that her pointer finger is not a “normal” pointer finger either. As it has a much smaller middle bone. They won’t be doing anything with that. It will probably be a little bit smaller and not grow at the same rate as the pointer finger on her left hand. She will be having surgery on Friday September 26th.  So I will be total wreck that day!  She will be in a cast for a month, which is kind of a bummer because it will take place just before her first birthday. So I’ve got only a few short weeks to get this little girl to walk, because crawling will be incredibly difficult for her with the cast on her hand!!  But to make it more fun we will be having a #virtualcastsigning party!  If you’d like to “sign” her cast, you’ll be able to!  Stay tuned for a post about that later in the month!

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I know I haven’t really talked about or posted pictures of her hand situation much. That’s because as her mom, I feel incredible guilt over this little issue. Even though I know in my logical mind I had absolutely nothing to do with this. It does have some genetic implications. But there wasn’t anything that I consciously or unconsciously did to do this and I know that, but I still feel a lot of guilt looking at that x-ray, and every time I look at her hand.


But after doing some reflection it occurred to me that I need to stop feeling shame and guilt about this because I DO NOT want her to feel like it is something that she needs to feel shame and guilt about. It is part of who she is and I love everything about her and who she is. And I MADE that! I created this happy, chubby, independent, hilarious and beautiful human being. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for the opportunity to be her mommy

11 Months

11 months

How is she 11 months old already?!?! It really does seem like only yesterday we we rushing to HCMC to welcome this little munchkin into our arms. It’s scary to think that this is the second to last photo I will take like this!! It’s getting harder to keep her laying still!
She is such a busy bee these days and into everything. All the things. I think it is her mission everyday to get into as many non-baby things as possible!
She loves to type on the keyboard with me while I am working, and loves to take videos of herself, and watch them later. We are sure that she will be walking before her surgery since she is getting so good at walking along everything that she can stand next to. And will RUN with assistance! Look out world!!
She still sings the Mom mom mom song, and asks for the ba ba ba nana song all day.
She is so fun, and awesome.
The countdown to One has begun!!